If You're Watching

I think I’ve found what I’m looking for –
Behind those eyes an open door –
That vacant stare which I adore –
I’m your slut, and you’re my whore –
Spare yourself the aching heart and spare yourself the pain –
Let us just makebleive it’s yesterday again –
And mother if you’re watching, look away –
And mother if you’re wondering, but don’t know what to say – Mother if you’re watching, look away … just look away – I think I found what I’m looking for –
So hit the lights and shut the door –
Listen carefully here’s the socore –
I’m your slut, and you’re my whore –
Spare yourself the aching heart –
And spare yourself the shame –
Let us just make believe it’s yesterday again –
And mother if you’re watching, look away –
And mother if you’re wondering, but don’t know what to say – Mother if you’re watching, look away –
It sometimes make me sick inside –
Ashamed of a life that I must hide –
I know you’ll never understand –
I’m sorry there’s no wedding band –
But deep inside there’s still that child –
Innocent in a world gone wild –
Obedient of your moral code –
Scarred by a Christian overload –
But still I live by truth and love –
I still have hopes in the above –
I still have interest in the cross –
But mother if your listening…… shut if off