Holy Shit (what A Relief)

holy shit
what a relief

i pulled myself apart – couldn’t breathe – tore my hair – bit my skin
i thought of all the dark – all the ash – all the blood – all the grief
i told myself look up – told myself look up and believe
and now this peace – like a blanket – enveloping me.

and holy shit
what a relief
the worst has come
and turned to leave
and holy shit
what a relief!
all that weight falling from me
and all that breath finally free