(why I'll Never Be) Clean Again

Take a look at my life
Do you see what I need?
(You) better give me the knife
(You) better leave me to bleed
I hate my lies – I hate myself
I hate my lies – I hate myself
Take a look in my eyes
Do you see what I see?
(You) better take my advice
(You) better listen to me:
I can see I will never be home again
I can see I will never be whole again
I can see I will never be free again
I can see I will never be me again
Read my mind –
Now you can see
Why I’ll never be clean again
I could lift you up,
Be your clown, make you smile
I will f*** you up,
Take you down, make you cry
Take a look in my face
And then kiss me goodbye
Don’t you know that I like to be a scapegoat?
(You) better drop all your faith
(You) better leave me to die
Don’t you know that I like to be a scapegoat?
I can see I will never be home again
I can see I will never be whole again
I can see I will never be free again
I can see I will never be me again
(I hate my lies – I hate myself)
(I hate my lies – I hate myself)
Read my mind –
Now you can see
Why I’ll never be clean again