Conflict

Rise/again/to face/the day
Wwith a knife/in my back/in my spine/ mind(!)
Insults/my life/(my)name/(my) rage
and bites/like pain/a war/conflict
Is it a price? is it a curse?
Spasms/swell/like rock/I turn to
stone/and/then/I’m at
home/low/dire/spiteful
resentment/breeds/profound/conflict…
– How long can this go on?

Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
post-op regret
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
recovery slip
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
a pause for the betterment
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
dwell on the negative
I am the one/the decider/I am a pun/the
destroyer…
Buried inside/like a time bomb/I am a
blitzkrieg/made of one…

I am the stunned/and the stunted/I define
fury/as in furious…
Damage the face/ball up the name/given
the kiss of chronic pain…

Tazed/awake/every fucking day/of
my life/nerve/damage/screams in
waves/as I lie/ass back
flat/the stab/the control/the tripwire
Conflict…
– How far deep is this scar?
Thrashing/under/pariah/smoke stained
sheets/hoping/somehow/someone might
see/my arm/waving/a flag of
surrender/I’m,/ M.I.A. in conflict
– Is it mistake/was it on purpose to
try and keep/me/in/check?

Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
3-level fuse…
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
titanium screws
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
rebuild the veteran
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
dwell on the negative

I am the one/the excluded/I am an animal/
that’s been wounded…
My insignificance/is significant/tirade in
flight/wings spanned…
I cannot fly/without looking down…
I cannot fly…

Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
3-pills a pop…
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
titanium clock…
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
ruin the veteran…
Conflict… Conflicting… Conflict
dwell on the negative!