Feverish

i’m coming down with it – becoming feverish
i look at you and i see everything that i detest
my blood begins to boil when my life starts to mimic yours
so quick to gratify yourself in fevered lunacy
your affliction is the same infection inside me
love – what i hate – and i hate everything that i’ve become
do – what i despise – every second of my life contradicts my words
turn – from what i need – only selfishly – just to lust and feed
nauseated and repulsed at my deeds
i put my hand to my head and i am becoming feverish
you disgust me – i disgust me
disgust – disdain – disgust – in pain
this life – making me sick
rampant – plague in my soul
madness – engulfing me
host to a…
pestilence of my existence
it seems stronger every day
torn from a thorn in my side
blind from a plank in my eye
God rid me of disease
free me from hypocrisy
love – what i hate – and i hate everything that i’ve become
do – what i despise – every second of my life contradicts my words
turn – from what i need – only selfishly – just to lust and feed
nauseated and repulsed at my deeds
i put my hand to my head and i am becoming feverish
i’m coming down with it – becoming feverish
you disgust me – i disgust me
disgust – disdain – disgust – in pain