Betrayed

It’s just that door again,
The one that I’ve created
It seems I’m trapped inside-
Myself again,
& corridors , now seems,
Too long & far too fragile,
To chase my shadow, change the shape of my reflection.

… The escape

Love me or murder me,
Is the same…
Kill me or rape me
Increse the pain.
(love me or murder me is the same)

& dreams keep coming back
But still I’m getting closer,
T o make an end to all I’ve known before.

Love me or rape me,
Fuck my brain.
Kill me & murder me-
Again.

& if it still repeats, I’ll cross my heart
& close my eyes & dream,
That you could hold me in your arms…

Escape.