Waking Misery

I’m sinking into waking misery
Is this where it ends?
What is reality?
Self Inflicted despondency
Coming to terms with what I am feels more like pulling teeth

Hiding from the sunlight
I’m not afraid of the burn
Only the secrets it finds
I called your name in the darkest night
But no one’s listening

I called your name but couldn’t hear a thing
Mark my words I won’t believe
I saw your face but now I’m losing sight
Mark my words I won’t believe

I hear them say follow me follow me under
I still believe I’m praying for praying for release
Life will find a way

I’ve grown accustomed to losing sleep
With my dreams
Rotting away before they see the light
How have I become so distant
I let the fire die inside of me

I hear them say follow me follow me under
I still believe I’m praying for praying for release
Life will find a way

I hear them say follow me follow me under the water line
I still believe I’m praying for praying for release
Life will find a way

I’ve got guilt that feels like it’s a noose around my neck
My faith was killing me
Every breath feels like the weight of my regret
My faith was killing me

I’m sinking into waking misery
Is this where it ends?
What is reality?
Self Inflicted despondency
Coming to terms with what I am feels more like pulling fucking teeth