Forgive & Remember

Before my eyes, another year goes by
Life’s greatest cost, another loved one lost
Our time together has come to an end
To greater heights your spirit will ascend

If I’d not known your name, I’d never feel this pain
The price of loving comes with one day feeling numb
If only there was more that I could do
To spare the world the pain of living without you

I will always remember who you were
I will carry your memory forever

Now I must move on
And accept that your being is gone
It’s harder every day since your spirit has faded away
If only you could take another’s place
In memories I’ll beg and plead to see your face

Disillusioned, in ruins, without any conclusion
Frustration, isolation, you are now my motivation

I will always regret what I have done
I will carry this guilt forever

How bout I load these twelve gauge shells
Punch my ticket straight down to hell
Might go swimmin’ with a VCR
Bleed out listenin’ to CCR
I say it should have been me
(We say it should have been him)

Might take it easy and jump from the roof
Swallow some bleach like it’s 101 proof
Slit my wrists and wait for the call
Rope around my neck ‘cause I’m a child of Fall
I say it should have been me
(We say it should have been him)

Past the point of contemplation
Time for my self mutilation
(It should have been)
Full of grandpa’s medication
Time for permanent vacation
(It should have been)

Disillusioned, in ruins, without any conclusion
Frustration, isolation, you are no my motivation

I will always remember who you were
I will live, and I’ll forgive, but I will never forget