More Than Useless

I feel like
I would like
To be somewhere else
Doing something that matters
And I’ll admit here
While I sit here
My mind wastes away
And my doubts start to gather

What’s the purpose?
It feels worthless
So unwanted, like I’ve lost of my value
I can’t find it
Not in the least bit
And I’m just scared
So scared that I’ll fail you
And sometimes I think
That I’m not any good at all
And sometimes
I wonder why
Why I’m even here at all
But then you assure me
I’m a little more than useless and
When I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can’t
Do something significant
I’ll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial
That life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
To late look
My date book
Is packed full of days
That were empty and now gone
And I bet
That regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

Sometimes I think that
I’m not any good at all
Sometimes I wonder why
I’m even here at all
But then you assure me
I’m a little more than useless and
When I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day
Gonna be the day
That I will do something right
Do something right for once

I noticed
I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it
I spent it
Convincing myself
The worlds doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time
Its my life
And my right to use it like I should
Like he would
For the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I’m a little more than useless and
When I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day
Gonna be the day
That I will do something right
Do something right for once